I really appreciate how clearheaded Isabel is most of the
time, and the other day she really made me stop and think. She was talking to
her dad about drawing, and complimenting his. Marco said how good my drawing
was, and Isabel agreed that I was good at drawing, but added that I didn’t like
it.
What to say. How sad that she should think I
don’t like drawing, but what evidence does she have to the contrary? She looks
at how I spend my free time, and doesn’t see me drawing. What has always been hard
for me is how little interest I have in the things I do well. I don’t know if
it’s a cause and effect thing, or which way it goes if it is. It’s certainly a
sad state of affairs.
Is the answer is to try harder to like
and invest time in the things I do well, or to just accept that what I like is
learning new things, and acknowledge that as I get better at them, I will lose
interest? The second sounds sadder, doesn’t it? I'm not sure staying true to yourself is always the best idea. The first sounds better.
